Why can't I just drown

I think I'm kinda in the same plight as Joseph. And yet I'm assuming the role of his advisor. And that's a real big joke. I'm trying to figure out where to swim now. Maybe 'cause I've been swimming back & forth in the pool for like don't know how many years. Okay, I'm supposed to be serious. Continue swimming in circles, or to swim out into the sea? I can't decide, 'cause the water's equally clear & the waves, equally pleasant.

WHY CAN'T I JUST DROWN.