Behind that smile,

Don'tyouagreethatit'squitehardtostopyourselffrombeingemosometimes? IknowverywellthatifI'mgoingtostartemo-ing,I'llsinkdeeperanddeeper,&endupintears. Rahh,butsometimesIjustcan'thelpitluh. Imean,isn'tittypicaltofeelhigh&hyper&surroundedwithgreatcompany,
butthenthenextmoment,you'realone(pangseh-edorwhatever),
ornooneseemstobelisteningtowhatyou'resaying,
ornooneseemstobebotheredbywhatyou'redoing,
&youfeelasthoughtheentireworldjustcamecrashingdownonyou
&people,whomyouthoughtwouldatleasthelpinstoppingtheworldfromcrushingyou,aregone?
&peoplewhousedtoshowmeloadsacare&concernareignoringmenow,asmuchasIcangatherfrommyfeelings. It'smyfault,actually.
ButIjustdon'tlikethingsthewaytheyarenow.
Idon'tlikethiskindofunfamiliarity.