Xiaoying is stressed stressed stressed.

Maybe I need to do something about it, to relieve stress...

Hmm like, looking at hot bods?

Yum.

But too bad nobody in WS has one. Shhh. Hee!

Okay, I was joking.

I need someone to entertain me, lah.

Beebeebaabeeboo.



I'm tired.

Byebye everyone.

And to Justin, Minhui & Leonard:
There's always another couple for you guys to go on a t r i p l e d a t e together.
If Xiaoying tags along, she'll just be a lightbulb! (x

Right, I just came to realise something yesterday, all thanks to someone/some people.
Really, I had not noticed it at all before this.
It wasn't very obvious at all...
And even when I had been told about it quite recently & repeatedly,
I didn't really believe it.
Oh well. But then again, so what if I'm aware of it now?
There's also nothing I can do.
(Okay, maybe "intend to do" is a better expression to use here.)

Yes, I'm gonna fold my arms & be passive.
Heard that, matchmakers? (=
Haha.

Back to school today.
The stress is starting to get to me
And soon, it's gonna take its toll on me...
Not just stress from academics..
but stress from School Nationals, NUS Lifesaving Invitationals, Lifesaving Nationals & Time trials for the Commonwealth Games all coming up at once.

Ugh, I just feel like closing my eyes & lying on the surfboard now.
Thinking about nothing at all & just drifting to wherever the waves push me to.
I'm starting to miss beach training already.

And to Justin:
The "baluku" on my head hurts la. Ow.

Ugh.
I cried AGAIN during training today.
I really don't know what was wrong with me just now.

But come to think of it, today's training wasn't considered tough at all.
Sigh. Maybe it's just because I didn't have sufficient sleep last night (Slept at 4am).
Or maybe I'm still not mentally strong/geared up for competition.
All the "Maybe this & Maybe that"s...

I was actually surprised about what I was thinking when the tears found their way out of my eyes i.e. crying. At that moment, I don't know for whatever reason,
I just yearned for a SOMEONE
that special SOMEONE
who will be there to comfort me whenever I break down like this.
I've always told myself that being single's better than anything else under the sun.
Not being tied down to a guy means f-r-e-e-d-o-m.
No burden, no restrictions, no petty quarrels...
But all these would also mean no sweet talk, no lovely flowers,
no one special to celebrate Vday with...
I mean, it's not like I regret choosing singlehood then, but it just seems to me at that moment, that on top of friends who would certainly show me concern, there would still be a need to find & secure this special SOMEONE... somehow... some day...

How?
I do not know.
And when?
I do not know.

But I do believe,
life is always full of surprises. (:

P.S. This is one emotional post, don't you think so? Haha. I guess Xiaoying does get a lil' emotional at times. (:

Contrary to the past two days, I'm feeling rather happy today.
(Told you I'm prone to mood swinggggs...)

Okay, here's what made me happy today:

• Caught Garfield 2 with Minhui, Leonard & Alvin.
  (Heh, but sorry I was a lil' late...)
• Bought Ariel's birthday pressie. I won't reveal what it is yet.
  (Minhui just told me she's done with it. Can't wait to see how it turns out to be.)
• & got myself my pair of Braziliano Praias!
  (Since the Havaianas Trekking slips are taking so long to hit Singapore)
  Wanted the one with red base & white strap but there's no size for me.
  Zz. But anyway, I still love my blue pair. Hee. I just hope that it won't give me any more big fat ugly blisters, or else I'll have to approach the lifeguards for more plasters on Sunday.

Hmm, I'm feeling rather guilty 'cause of the amount of money I've been spending.
But still, I'm really happy TODAY.
Don't know about tomorrow 'cause it's gonna be Swim Team Day Camp.
Aah, but who cares, there'll be W'sapien training after that! Yay, I like.

But well, casting the guilt in my heart aside,

CAN I HAVE THAT TEE THAT SAYS I LOVE CHOCOLATE, PRETTY PLEASE?

I really like it. A lot.


P.S. Anyone's interested in getting one for Xiaoying? Haha.

Alright, I shall make myself scarce now. Byebye.

D E A D B E A T .

I think I'm having mood swings today.
One moment, I'm singing & feeling happy..
The next moment, I'll somehow get irritated with someone/something & refuse to talk.
Swing swing swing.

I think I'm going ding-dong...
But I guess no one really cares anyway.
So I should just stfu & go finish up my work.
Humph.

B Y E B Y E .

I
cried
during
training
today.

****.
I
don't
know
if
I'm
pissed
with
myself/
my
frickin'
aching
legs/
or
people
around
me.

Damn,
how
am
I
gonna
run
at
the
beach
tomorrow?

&
better
still,
my
poor
toes
are
sure
gonna
scream
&
give
me
p-a-i-n
again
when
they
hit
the
sand
tomorrow...

This
is
so
irritating.

&
I
think
the
way
I'm
typing
now
is
irritating
too.

Is
it
irritating
you?

I
sure
hope
it
is
'cause
I'm
feeling
real
irritated
now.



SOMEBODY
SMACK
ME.

I shall sum up class party in 1 word: FUN.

The whole table was full of food, food & more food.
& guess what they watched? Silent Hill (which I watched just last night).
But never mind, most of us went to play billiards.
I've seen my father play since I was 9, but I've never tried playing before.
It's quite fun, really. (When I manage to hit the ball la. Haha.)
Yay, I want to play again.
(To Minhui: Let's go play pool soon, yes no?) =D

Then we played a card game called Jungle Speed that Sarah brought back from France.
It's exciting & tests one's alertness and reaction.
Besides that, another game was "Zip-zap-ping-pong".
That's the most hilarious of all.
We got to find out who's the slowest & most retarded amongst us.
& it was also during that game when Xuejun & I were actually forced to stuff as many marshmallows as possible into our mouths. The loser would have to bring the 2 whole packets of marshmallows home. *yucks.

But in the end, we changed it to tossing marshmallows into our mouths. The person who fails to catch it in her mouth had to bring the packets back home. & actually, I was going strong lor! Once, Xuejun missed & I was damn relieved, 'cause if I caught mine, the packets would have to go to her. But wth, I actually missed it too! Haha. Unfortunately I lost in the end la. Gotta brush up on my tossing-food-into-the-air-and-into-mouth skills. Lol.

Alright, I'm yawning for the sixth time now.
G'night to whoever's listening to me.

Caught Silent Hill last night. Hmm, the show doesn't really appeal to me even though it's probably the first NC16 show I've ever watched. (Okay, not considering the lil' bit of House of Wax we watched in class during lunch last year... Shh.)

The monsters/ghosts were a lil' gross, but I liked the part where there were rubbery-like women figures blocking the passageway & Rose had to inch through this group of disgusting "manikins". At first, they were all in a haphazard order. Then the sound effects came & these disgusting creatures changed their formation, falling into some sort of a pyramid pattern. For once, I thought they were going to dance as if they're in some Michael Jackson's mtv la. Haha. Then Huabin & I were laughing away. Oh, and Silent Hill has lots of scenes where the screen blacks out or turns completely white.
Then this amusing guy shouted,
"Eh, pirated ah?"
Haha, at least it made me laugh in the middle of the show.

Spent the night at Mr Kwa's. I didn't want to sleep alone in the room so I went to sleep on the sofa. At least Huabin was there to talk to me. Haha. My handphone was "kidnapped" by Huabin. He said this was the only way I would stop messaging and go to sleep. Lol, but I guessed it worked la, 'cause after that, I just plugged my earphones into my ears & dozed off with my favourite music. Woke up once 'cause it was way too hot for me. So Huabin exchanged places with me & I went to sleep on the mattress. & he was kind enough to fan me 'cause he couldn't fall asleep. Haha.

So I woke up super early this morning (Forced to la..) to climb stairs. All the way up to 16 storeys & then back down again! At least 10 times. & boy do I appreciate the lifts more after this morning exercise.

Feeling now. So lazy I don't even feel like going for the class party later...

Today's the big T day for Emily & her students! (My sis, Huajian, Harry, Terence, Crystal, Clarence, just to name a few...)

So here's...
G'LUCK TO ALL OF YOU!
I'm sure y'all will have no problem passing your Lifesaving 123 test!

Okay, I'm off to Toapayoh to "support" them now.
Having training there at 7 later.
& somehow, I'm prepared for the worst.
"See you morrow for suffering trg." - Mr Kwa's message.


Nevermind, Huabin will be suffering with me too. LOL

MY FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK!

As usual, Sunday beach training @ Sentosa! Whoo!
(But don't be mistaken, it's not like I really love Sentosa that much. As if there are loads of six-packs or even eight-packs there for my eyes to feast on.
Oops. Sorry, couldn't help it.)


But still, the sun, the sand & the sea never fail to make my day an enjoyable one!
Beach sprints. Beach flags drills. The yellow surfboards.
Hmm, okay maybe let's include the Run-Swim-Run sets that I had to do too.
But but but,
the most important ingredient's still the great company: W'Sapiens(:

But now, allow me to say something random:
Mr Kwa is seriously getting crankier, I tell you.
Here's what happened today:
On the Yellow Line bus, Mr Kwa called me.
He asked if training had started. I said no.
& the next thing he asked was really ridiculous.
"Oh, so have you finished all your homework?"
LOL. Hello? It's a sunny Sunday, Xiaoying's on her way to Sentosa
& you're asking her about her heap of work at home?
But anyway, he wanted me to complete my work & not "hug the Buddha's legs" (quoted from him), which I admit, I always do. Yes, proscrastinating's another of my bad habits.
(Sh*t, I think I really have quite a lot of bad habits.
Those who know me really well can name you quite a number. Haha.)

Well okay, as I was saying... yes, beach training. Right, I think I fared quite well in training today y'know! One great accomplishment was the sets of run-swim-run I did today (at least 4!). But the most irritating thing happened to me. The skin at the bottom of both my toes came off. Wtf. Damn painful okay. I got those big fat ugly blisters from doing jumping-jacks at training last week, and running on the sand aggravated them.
& the skin decided to be annoying. It just hung onto my toe & refused to come off completely. Very painful. *pouts.

So I think I used up quite a lot of Beach Patrol's stock of plasters. Sorry lah, but they just won't stick to my toes. Plus, I was doing run-SWIM-run, so the not-waterproof plasters were definitely bound to un-stick themselves & drop off, either in the sea or on the sand. Sorry, but is that considered littering? =/

Then, after fruitless attempts to make the plasters stick to my toes, this Chinese lifeguard recommended this dunno-what spray. (The one who provided me with plasters was an Indian lifeguard.) Anyway, he said, " I suggest you use this. Try it. It's not that painful." As if I would believe him. But still I had to try lah. So I sat at the shower area & screamed/yelled/(whatever other vocabulary you use to describe noise) as my Mummy aimed at my toes & sprayed. & trust that lifeguard to be sitting up there on that tower & laughing, at me! Humph, how mean.

Okay, after enduring all that pain & taking stares/laughs/giggles from on-lookers, it was still useless. In the end, I had to endure the pain in my frickin' toes & complete the 8 sets of beach sprints. See, I told you I fared quite well in training today. Hee.

Great, I realised I've typed so much but I haven't gone to the After-Training part. We were supposed to play the luge this week, but failed to. (Once again. Actually not once! I can't remember how many times. Tsk.) But never mind, I promise, I promise, I promise, we'll play next week okay! If not, somebody can just kick me. Haha.


So, in summary, Xiaoying did not have her usual Sunday Subway lunch. Instead, it was "Family Day" & picnicking @ Palawan Beach. Alright, I shall spare you the agony of reading more of my nonsense & let the pictures convey what has to be conveyed.

S, M, L, XL!

Piggy-back on a piggy!

Liyun, Ying, Qing, Boyboy.

Heh heh, I got the drumstick.

In the sea...

Now that I'm 16, I can never understand how scraping & scooping sand can be fun.

So cute.(:

Outside the shop owned by a friend of Alvin. Haha.

Hello Mr Ice-cream man.

8 PACKS! I'm gonna drool at this hunk every week from now on.

I have two apples now!
Okay, and being nice, I shall share.
Raise your hand if you want a bite.


And and and, I want to watch The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift!
I think it'll be exciting.
Heard that, anyone?

To: My Body


I WANT ABS!


Love, Christine.

WHERE'S MY APPLE?

Sent via MSN post last night.
And it's sweet.
Hee, thank you.

And since it's for B.X.Y Christine, only I can eat it.

Blogger's being cranky, and it's forbidding me from uploading pictures.
Anyway, this song's really cute.

MY FRIEND'S GOT A GIRLFRIEND by OFFSPRING
My friend's got a girlfriend
Man he hates that bitch
He tells me every day
He says, "Man I really gotta lose my chick
In the worst kind of way."

She sits on her ass
He works his hands to the bone
To give her money every payday
But she wants more dinero just to stay at home
Well my friend
You gotta say:

I won't pay, I won't pay ya, no waaay
Na, na, why don't you get a job?
Say no way, say no way ya, no waaay
Na, na, why don't you get a job?

I guess all his money, well it isn't enough
To keep her bill collectors at bay
I guess all his money, well it isn't enough
'Cause that girl's got expensive taste

I won't pay, I won't pay ya, no waaay
Na, na, why don't you get a job?
Say no way, say no way ya, no waaay
Na, na, why don't you get a job?

Well I guess it ain't easy doing nothing at all (Oh yeah)
But hey man free rides just don't come along every day

(Let me tell you about my other friend now...)

My friend's got a boyfriend,
Man she hates that dick
She tells me every day
He wants more dinero just to stay at home
Well my friend
You gotta say:

I won't pay, I won't pay ya, no way
Na, na, Why don't you get a job?
Say no way, say no way ya, no way
Na, na, Why don't you get a job? (Oh yeah)
I won't give you no moneyI always pay
Na, na, why don't you get a job?
Say no way, say no way ya, no waaay
Na, na, why don't you get a joooob!

(Hey that's something everyone can enjoy!)


So, are any of your girlfriends/boyfriends such bitches/dicks?
Hee, just kiddin'!

Byebye Monday, and Hello Tuesday.
It's already Tuesday morning
and I'm still doing my Differentiation Revision Exercises.
Damn. Math really got me this time. But it all seems easy peasy for people like Carmen & Bobby. (Uncle) T-jian kindly helped me with a sum when he was at work. He did the sum, scanned the working and sent it over. & I appreciated that. Haha, thank you. 1 down, at least 20 more to go.

Right. I spent my Monday rotting at home. So Tuesday morning spells
R U N N I N G
for me. (But it wasn't exactly voluntary, mind you. Somebody by the name of Jea**** wanted me to. Haha.) Maybe it's good to wake up early once in a while for a run, since I've really been a P.I.G. the past two weeks. Blah. I'm in a mood to blabber now. Justin's cracking his brain on his programming now. & Adrian's eating his spicy maggie mee. & there's no hotcake for me. & I'm supposed to be sleeping. I'm supposed to recharge myself in the hols and catch up on my beauty sleep. So what on earth am I still doing here at this hour?

Oh, I got new studs for my ears. I think I've neglected them for too long, now they're protesting and the holes are closing up. Mickey studs in blue and green. & two apple studs. (They're really adorable!)

Okay, I'm gonna retire for the night. Byebye world.

Edited
****
I had a rollin' good time today!
(Even though it was a NO-SENTOSA day.)

Today's "training" was running around the neighbourhood. Destination: Emily's house. Haha. Upon reaching her house, the sky boomed its protests. And yes, it started raining. So, we walked back to the pool - in the rain! Cold & wet, but it was fun. Jumping into puddles. Splashing, splashing & more splashing. Flooded and overflowing drains that didn't seem to be there at all. Long wriggly earthworms. Rainy days had never been much more fun than this.

Oh yes, the carnival. There isn't much to comment about, except my fav: Fruit Harvesting! The sight of apples, oranges & pears floating around in Yishun pool! If only they were always there, everyday, during training.. Blah. I guarantee I'll swim harder! Haha. And everone couldn't resist but to take a bite into the fruits, without even washing them.

I just can't resist fruits, yes no? (:


Spotted me?

Getting ready.

4 crazy people. Haha.

Stupid Leonard. Never wait for me, lah.

Group pic!

TAKING UP SOMETHING NEW,
OR JUST STICKING TO WHAT I'M DOING AT THE PRESENT?
Accompanied by my mummy, sis & Auntie Jean, I went to thenextstageacademy today, after receiving a call from this lady called Raine from UAN on Wednesday. Many people have been telling me not to go, that this might all just be some evil scheme.. But i thought I would just go ahead and see for myself.

Hmm, and I can say I'm a lil' interested..?
But Mummy isn't very keen about this.
I don't know.
After leaving thenextstageacademy, I was shot with questions.
"Think about it. Is this what you want?"
"What is it that you actually want in life?"
"Are you really interested in this?"
"Will you be able to cope with your studies/swimming and whatnots?"
"Is this the time for you to pursue what you really want in life?"
"Or should you just wait till you're done with your studies?"
"Or maybe you should wait till you're older and able to decide for yourself?"

Well, in response to all these questions:
it's a BIG

That's my favourite answer.
I guess I'll need some time to think about this, about what I really want.
Down-to-earth, mugging, or actually just doing what a student/daughter ought to do?
Or "fame", that camera and those spotlights?

THURSDAY...
was a "psychotic" day.
I had two psychos talking to me online on the same day!

One of them was a female.. 23 years old if I'm not wrong.
This desperate woman kept asking me
if i wore one-piece or two-piece costume.
What the hell has this gotta do with her la?!
And guess what she said next?
"My bf likes me in one-piece suit."
And, what the heck has her boyfriend's preference gotta do with me?
From there, this despo went to talk about
wearing a swimsuit and having ***.
When asked why she's asking me all this sh*t,
"I just wanted to have a gal-to-gal talk" was her answer.
I just hope her friends will go tighten up the loose screws in her head.

The other psycho was a guy who kept asking questions like..
"What colour is your swimsuit?"
"Can I see your swim pics?"
And his reason being: he likes Arena suits.
WTF. I just told him to visit Arena's website for the newer suits la.

What is the world becoming of?
I think on top of all the advanced laser treatments and plastic surgery treatments today,
we are still short of one treatment: Purifying brains.
There are just too many sick people out there.
(Another person met 2 psychos online just today. haha.)
I don't care, either they go for that Purifying Brain treatment,
or they can just STFU and go far far, farrr away from me.
Or, disappear from the surface of this earth for all i care.

SHOO.

W'SAPIENS TIME TRIALS
My timings sucked.
Enough said.

1 month to NUS Lifesaving Invitationals
&
2 months till the big C day.

IT'S TIME YOU BUCK UP.

Edited
****
I'M A HAPPY GIRL!
'cause i bought new stuff for myself!

• a new training costume
• a navy blue shirt with light blue arena logo stripe
• two pairs of beachshorts
• a pair of running shorts
• a pair of gogs
• and a turqoise jacket!

whoopees! i love that jacket!
( fiona likes it too! )
it was the last piece on the rack, plus it was a sample piece,
so the price was fabulously lower than usual. =D

on monday, anges got me a GREEEEN pair of shorts from tyr sale.
zz. i'm spending too much.

okay, i shall entertain myself at this hour by laughing at alvin's friends.

Q: What do you call two of alvin's friends wrapped in a red blanket?
A: Kit-Kat!

After sunday's training at sentosa,

CONCLUSION:
alvin has lots of friends
and they like to terrorise people from watersapiens.

on sunday, one of them was holding on to the surfboard while i was lying on it and emily was talking to us. i tell you, i was so shocked i jumped off the board at once!

how horrifying.

PHYSICS IS KILLIN' ME!
damn, i don't understand a single sh*t.
just ask the people in sri lanka to choose whatever appliances they want la!

i don't care if their house just blacks out..
when Sri Lanka Idol's showing on tv..
or right smack in the middle of their Grandma's 60th birthday celebration or what la.
(but anyway, they'll still have 60 lil candles or 6 big fat candles on the cake. so there's no need to worry! haha.)

any more performance tasks, and christine's fuse's gonna blow maaan.

YOU FEELIN' ME*?

without it, i feel like i'm just fighting the water.
when it's back, gliding through the water's easy peasy.

without it, i drink their bubbles.
when it's back, i tell myself, "i won't drown in their waves."
"THEY'LL DROWN IN MINE."

without it, it's seriously a torment.
when it's back, swimming 30 by 100m free is one word: SHIOK.
(of course, other than that,
what i need is more determination and less laziness in me. hee!)

YAY I LIKE IT WHEN MY WATER FEEL'S BACK.


and i don't wanna lose it again..
'cause i know it'll take much much MUCH more hard work to get it back.

SO, moral of the story?

xiaoying promises not to skip any training unnecessarily,
be it sleeping, (highly likely.. hee)
procrastinating till there's a mountainous load of work left to be done,
(quite likely too)
or going out. (whew. less likely.)

this is amusing.
someday i shall try that too. lol

****.
i'm stuck at physics.
HELP! ):

MONDAY & TUESDAY - LIFESAVING LESSONS
was rather stressed up on monday and tuesday.
but somehow i alrdy expected teaching to be tough for me la.
it was all easy peasy for emily..

i didn't even feel like talking.
my bad habit: i don't like talking in the morning.
and i mean it.. you can really expect silence from me,
until i feel like talking and irritating someone. haha.
(but for those who usually see me in the afternoon or even at night, i'm sorry la. you'll just have to hear all my nonsense. hee.)

teaching's definitely not my cup of tea.
but people are telling me to start teaching and learn slowly...
i don't know.
i think i'll just observe now and start my actual attachment next hols.
hopefully, more "confidence" ( quoted from alvin(: )
will surface in november or december.

WEDNESDAY - TRAINING
nothing much besides the usual training at toapayoh. but nigel was amusing la. haha. emily was briefing the girls about the team lineup for NUS lifesaving invitationals by the pool. as usual, nigel came late. and as usual, his facial expression was a big B-L-U-R. and he just sat down with his earphones still on, and looked at the ground, obviously unaware that he's the only guy there.

IRONWOMAN, i've been wanting to try.
ugh i don't know.
xiaoying's a girl who doesn't even know what she wants.

THURSDAY - CALORIES-BURNING DAY!
headed back to school to collect mid-year interim report slip.
and my grades suck this time. they really do! ):
oh well, there's nothing i can do now
except to work hard, harder and even harder. zz.

anyway, today was a CALORIES-BURNING DAY for me!

• beach training in the afternoon
• running in the evening
• swimming at night
• plus.. massage!

yay, proud of myself!
(though i was lazy and wouldn't have gone for the run..
if mr kwa hadn't forced me to. shh.)

YAWN. bye for now! (: